Freak Out

Oh my god... I can like... I... okay... so I was getting really excited about starting to eat HEALTHY and loose weight the HEALTHY way and I got super stressed and I did great up until after lunch today and then I ate too much and I feel so fucking fat and first it was mostly my stomach but there's fat on my hips and I already know my ass is big and I totally just undid all of my work at the gym this morning by food and I just never want to eat again I want all of this fat off of me, it's suffocating me, it's suffocating who I am. I want it all gone! I can feel it and it's everywhere and I don't even know what to do about it I just want to get rid of it!!