Fuckin Nu Wave.

So dinner was rough tonight. I just finished. I had a turkey burger because my parents were having ribs. The smell of them was killing me all day. So anyway, my mom didn't even get home until 7 which is borderline too late for me to have a meal and by then it's raining. Now, sometimes my dad will stand outside and grill with an umbrella over his head or go out in the winter and fire up the grill. And he's very good at keeping my food away from anyone else's and making sure he scrapes any little crap pieces I may not want off. 


Well I walk into the kitchen and my mom had my turkey burger in some kind of contraption! When I asked her what it was she tells me it's a Nu Wave. What the fuck. And so I let her start cooking it and am slowly freaking out more and more. This thing has a top on it. I do not want all of those disgusting juices in my burger- they need to be squeezed out (I have a habit of smushing a lot of my food). Nothing can be scraped off either... and I'm watching... and this thing looks like it's just melting my turkey burger. Like, the sides where all fucked up and there was this horrible smell coming out of it. 


So naturally, I start bitching. Not really, but my mom of course flips out on me and is now pissed off. She gets out the grill that is for indoors (and while it's not the same as outside, it's better than a fuckin' Nu Wave). Her and my dad both tried to help me cook it and I wouldn't let anyone near. 


I ended up cutting of the edges all around the burger too. And then to make things even worse- it tasted funny. I dunno if it was from the Nu Wave or the smell of my parents ribs or both. Then I tried to have a little salad- but there where a few cut up tomatoes in it so of course there is tomato juice on everything. I picked out what I could which was like nothing and didn't even finish that.


Oh and I had some sweet potato fries (probably most of my dinner calories). I swear it's all my mom makes knowing that I will eat them. And she always puts them right fucking next to me. I hate that shit.


On a side note... Zette- I don't want to put the names of the pills on here because I am "in recovery" as well as most of my followers (although I may still have some "pro-ana" followers) and I don't want to encourage anyone to take them as well as I don't want to trigger anyone. I don't want to promote diet pills in any way. I have taken just about every diet pill out there- usually multiple kinds at a time in addition to the occasional diuretic and maximum strength laxatives. And let me just tell you, that not a single one of them does a thing. The only reason I take the pills is because I now have an addiction to them.

And to everyone else who has been commenting- thank you. I really appreciate your support and the fact many of you are still keeping up with my nonsense (especially when I have been failing to comment on many of your posts). 


Oh! And Krystal- the meeting I went to was also an ANAD meeting.




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