- Started lamictal (take my last 25mg tomorrow and then move on to 50mg)
- Started talking/hanging out with J again... its like nothing's changed
- My dad's uncle died Monday... I didn't really know him well but still.
- MY friend K (have I talked about her before) have 3 tumors, one with cancer cells which may or may not be active... at this point she doesn't wanna do chemo.
- I'm on the anxiety medication... haven't taken more than 2 at a time so far
- Took some fat burners Tuesday (4) and 2 yesterday morning along with a bottle of smirnoff ice before 9am
So yeah... I really really need to get on here more and track my moods and things...
OH... forgot the almost killing myself part... yeah, I'm fine... I just really wanted to crash my car... parked down by a river for like over an hour... don't worry I'm fine.
SO sick right now though and I feel SUPER fat and huge and disgusting and I just wanna cut it all off.
Still wanting to withdraw from school...
Still making 'attempts' at purging but not getting very far...
STILL not recovered... from anything... go figure... I doubt I ever will, I should honestly just kill myself. But fuck.
Whatever... I'm fine... seriously gonna work on more updates... maybe once I withdraw from school I can make that happen.
xx
