I hate that no one takes me seriously when I say I have no friends. Here I am... spending YET ANOTHER holiday alone. I haven't left the house all day. I'm home... but my parents are on vacation. They had a friend call me and invite me over but I'm not about to spend a holiday with my parents friends out of pity! I almost wanted to just go see some fireworks by myself but I know that will only upset me more. I really haven't even talked to anyone much today.
I know it's better to have a few really close friends than a lot of not-so-close friends... but when my few close friends have a zillion other really close friends... it still leaves me left out... like... a lot.
Sometimes it really sucks not having a lot of friends. I'm the kind of person who doesn't have a lot of friends, and I find the ones i do have come in waves. Sometimes I feel really close to them and it's amazing, and other times I feel like none of them really care about me and I don't see much of them. Sometimes it can be good to just enjoy your own company, even on holidays.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you're having a hard time lovely. But you know it's like that saying how you feel alone in a crowded room? I suggest you stick with your close friends and make friends with their friends and maybe who knows maybe you'll find better close friends. ♥
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