So, I haven't been on here much... I am hoping to be posting more frequently because journaling has been really helpful for me in the past and with all of the new things going on in my life, I think I need it to help me sort out my thoughts.
Let's start with just the past few weeks... a few major events in my life and I'll leave it at that because trying to fill you in on everything since then is just way to overwhelming.
So I'm back in therapy. Yup... I went back. I'm actually seeing a psychiatrist now. I'm very comfortable talking to him and I like the way he treats me. He is beginning to weigh me every week although I don't have to know my weight just yet. Eventually he wants me to see is and learn to accept it.
Really though, we're focusing much more on my mood than we are on my eating disorder behaviors. I'm doing pretty well in terms of food with a few exceptions here and there.
So yes... my mood... I've been diagnosed with bipolar type II. Fun stuff, right? So, he wants me on lamictal. I'm still thinking about it... not quite ready to go that route though. He is really trying to help me with self injury and also wants me on an as-needed anti anxiety medication for when I get really overwhelmed or get the urge to cut. That one, I may fill the prescription for... even if I'm not sure I'll use it, just to have it around. He said it's a low dosage and he would only fill a quantity that wasn't really bad. It was actually my concern to have a bottle of medication on hand for when times were rough.
That's all I'm going to say about that right now...
Another thing, in addition to now being in grad school... I have a boyfriend. We can call him D. It's a new thing and I'm still getting use to it. He's great though and very supportive of everything. It's been "official" for about 2 weeks now... but I only see him once a week since he's back home and I'm up at school again.
For now that's all, I'm going to try to get on here more frequently so you can all know every detail of my life once again :P