Questions Answered

I'll start at the most recent and go back in time. I think over time most of these have been answered through other posts.

First things first... the name of my new teddy bear. Funny I didn't think about it until you guys brought it up because I normally name anything and everything I see. I think I'm going to be simple and just call him Teddy. Simplicity at its finest :)


Next... the name of the song on my blog CURRENTLY is Just Tonight by The Pretty Reckless, unplugged version :) 
If you scroll all the way down you can see the playlist and video. There is only the one song on  my playlist. Also, by going down there you can turn the music off if it bothers you or if you want to watch one of the videos I often post :)


A question about the music video for Gunnin' by Hedley... I answered this via comment but just in case you didn't catch it.... my take on the video was that yes, she died.... I think it was actually based on someone the lead singer knew in real life who died from anorexia. This is just a music video though, the actual girl in the video may, probably doesn't have an eating disorder... she is an actress. I don't know her name. I agree though, she is beautiful. But so are many of you... you just don't see it because this disorder is blocking your view. Just like I know I have the ability to be confident, I just loose it behind all the other shit most of the time. 


My underboob tattoo didn't hurt as much as I expected. I just closed my eyes and relaxed. I actually enjoyed it... weird, right? Even the painful parts. And yes, there were some letters where I was like WHAT THE FUCK?!? But for the most part it was a comforting feeling. Plus when he was doing it I guess his forearm is like, the same length as my torso, haha, so he rested his arm on my belly and his elbow came to just under my bellybutton... or a little further than just under :) Which was also a comforting feeling. It made me feel so much safer.


I think that's all for now... oh, and my rook piercing hurt like a bitch, but I think I already mentioned that I came close to breaking my friend's hand. Even getting the barbell changed hurt because it was originally done with externally threaded jewelery. So If you guys want a piercing, make sure it's internally threaded :) It's safer and less painful. 


If you have any more questions about whatever feel free to leave them in the comments, and as always questions are welcome on all of my posts! I will try to make more posts answering them for you guys!


As you know from my most recent post, I am not working today, I called in sick... 5th day of my internship. Whoops! Anyway, I'll either be sleeping (which isn't working because I can't breathe and feel to nauseous) or on here posting away!

Much love <3


xox

Totally random...

So first off, there's a few things that I wish were different about blogspot...


a) I wish there was a way to be notified if when someone comments. Not like, on your own blog, that's easy enough to check... but I mean on other people's blogs. So that we could like... respond to a person's comment right there. I used to do that all the time and then I was like... who's gonna see this? Who is going to go back to an old entry and read through the comments? So yeah, I wish there was an option for that.


b) I wish we could make posts available only to subscribers. I wouldn't do this for all of my posts but there are a few things I wanna get out there but I'm paranoid other people will find them somehow and magically know it's about them if it is. I know, kind of unrealistic, but whatever.


c) I had another one, but by the time I got around to writing this I totally forgot.





OH! And I don't think I told you guys, but I'm back to being a straight up brunette. It's been so long!! I do really like it though. It's a lighter lighter underneath and if you look closely you can still see some of the colors very faded under the brown, but I kind of like it that way. It makes it unique. Anyway, my internship starts tomorrow so I figured it was better to go all brown than re-bleach, re-dye, blah blah blah. 


Also, I had a very lovely encounter with a homeless woman today. I always feel bad when I have nothing to give the homeless, but she was very sweet and so nice! I felt super bad cause it wasn't like she was one of the creeper guys that stand outside of the 7-11, she was just walking along with her friend and they needed tokens for the trolley. I wish I could've helped. One day I will be able to.






Holy CRAP my back hurts right now! Sorry, talk about random....

I really had so much to say but now I can't remember any of it!! That's alright, I'll keep this post short I guess since it's the second of the day. Although... the thing I was kind of referring to about wishing I could make private entries... is probably going to be a new post I may right tonight. It's a boy thing... not something I usually post about since boys don't really like me. I just got proof of it is all... I mean, kind of. I just came finally agreed that, yes, there are plenty of guys who would fuck me, but that's all they want from me. Yeah, I'll get the details to you guys in another post at a later time. 

 So I'll waste my time and I'll burn my mind on miss nothing, miss everything.

Okay, I'm done now.


Much love <3

Just Because

So, I'm home.... as in with the parents. This is my "spring break". I'll be here for a week-10 days. I got a few free trial guest passes at the local gyms so I can go in and work out/take fitness classes for free. That's in addition to the equipment we have in the basement.


I'm finally going to take Zumba! Haha, I've always wanted to but could never fit it in my schedule. I'm going tomorrow morning 9:30-11. I'm actually going to sleep right after this post since I am extremely sleep deprived at the moment. 


I feel super white also, so I'm gonna need to get some cash for tanning. I could really go for a frosted bed tan. Even everything out, get some color on my face.


I'm going to make the best of being home despite the fact J once again hates me. I'm starting to feel like she's looking for reasons to start fights. But whatever, I'm not going to let it phase me. I don't need her or anyone else.


I think I'm going to keep this short since my last post was about a mile long. I'll try to keep updating throughout the week and then once I'm back at school and working! I'm excited but nervous for the fact I only have dance classes twice a week. That is just not acceptable for me. I'm gonna have to work something out and get some extra classes in somehow.


Well anyway, that's it for now. I hope you're all doing well :)

[[I tried to add photos but they won't let me, I'll get them to you tomorrow or sometime this week!]]