Whaddup 5:30am!!
I think that I can safely say I have insomnia at this point in my life. So I've decided I'm going to make more videos of just me talking. I think I might make one tomorrow, possibly with that whole "series of unfortunate events" that I keep putting off. But anyway, until then... I made this video a few hours ago. I was just watching old dance videos and yeah... I really do miss my dance studio. I miss everything about it. I miss dancing like that, I miss dancing that much. I miss it all. It was my home. I pretty much lived at the studio and that was who I was.
I think that I can safely say I have insomnia at this point in my life. So I've decided I'm going to make more videos of just me talking. I think I might make one tomorrow, possibly with that whole "series of unfortunate events" that I keep putting off. But anyway, until then... I made this video a few hours ago. I was just watching old dance videos and yeah... I really do miss my dance studio. I miss everything about it. I miss dancing like that, I miss dancing that much. I miss it all. It was my home. I pretty much lived at the studio and that was who I was.
I was the girl that was always at the dance studio.
I assisted all of the children's classes.
I was always there taking class.
I did pilates downstairs 7 days a week.
I was in charge of everything for competition.
I was always in the office doing homework or stuff for the studio or stuff for competition.
If anyone ever needed me, they knew exactly where to find me. Everyone knew me there... all of the kids loved me. And I loved them.
But I'm not that girl anymore.
I'm 21 years old and I'm in college.
I'm a nothing now.
Anyway... I made this video because dance is the reason I'm here, dance is the reason I can get myself to smile, dance is my everything... it's what keeps me going. It's why I'm still fighting. I really don't know if any of this is gonna make sense to any of you but... yeah... that's all I have to say for now.
It makes sense to me. I know you are at college now, but is getting into dance there not an option? It sounds like you really miss it a lot. x
ReplyDeleteI really enjoy your videos. You always look so happy when you dance. Does your college have a dance team you can join? I think you should find some way to keep dancing. You look so beautiful in your videos. I really hope you find a way to dance because you are really good and it keeps you going. Keep fighting. <3
ReplyDeleteThank you :)
ReplyDeleteI am actually a dance major. But it's not the same kind of dance, not as much dancing, and it's just not my studio. So I still dance as much as possible... it's just very different.