Wednesday, May 4, 2011

I really thought I was doing better....

Apparently not.

I ate like 928450974309869405870476089537605890976895760857975 billion calories today. No joke. 

Like... why? I'm happier when I don't eat... I know this. I know food and eating is the one thing that upsets me more than anything else in the world. So like, what the fuck is my problem. My stomach feels so huge... as usual. I can actually feel my ass getting larger as I write this. There's just so much FLAB everywhere. I mean, I've seen overweight people that look good... confidence really helps that (and the fact that they truly are beautiful), the way they dress, whatever.... but I'm just all flabby. It's disgusting. I disgust myself. 

Nothing but diet pills and ex-lax from here on out.

I probably have more to say but I'm just gonna end it here because nothing I say has any value or worth. I don't even care right now.


  1. I'm sorry you had a bad day ): I know how you feel about being happier when you aren't eating. I feel the same way too. I hope tomorrow is a lot better for you. Good luck.

  2. I'm sorry you're having such a bad day sweetheart :( But don't worry yourself too much. Tomorrow is another day x

  3. Please take care of yourself and go easy on the laxatives *hugs*

  4. take a deep breath. im sorry... just know you ARE worth it