I don't think I've every actually been able to say that. But I really really am hungry... well... was. I felt hungry (and not just the fact I've been lightheaded for 2 days) I actually felt what real hunger is... but then... I saw myself in the mirror... and it just went away. Gone. No more hunger. I am still debating picking something up for breakfast/lunch... a special K bar or something... I could leave for work early to pick it up and also get a few things to throw in my apartment since there is no food here.
But I don't know if that's going to happen. Even though I know I should eat, I'm scared... so I took a few more pills and drank some vitamin water zero.
This is hard... oh... and I had a real rough night last night. I should explain that at some point but I'm still trying to figure it out myself. All I know is that I am one hell of a bitch.
Oh well... I'm just good at pushing people away I guess. At least I know I'm good at something.
*Hugs*
ReplyDeleteNothing wrong with being a bitch sometimes...
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I hope you got something to eat. Food is important even though we tell ourselves we can live without it.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find comfort in seeing your grandma's grave. Maybe it'll bring you some closure.