I cut... WHILE driving to work. Not safe. Really... I dunno how I didn't get into an accident.
I only took 6 fat burners cause I don't wanna run out and haven't gotten to the store yet.
After work I did have some mini quaker rice cakes... not too happy about it... but all I had today was those and my peanut butter and yogurt in the morning.
I've been drinking orange-cranberry-tangerine skinny waters practically religiously.
My cyst flared up again the other day and the other reason I'm actually wrapping it is because I now have to hide my wrist. I wore my watch super tight today at work because I didn't want it moving or anything to show.
I want to cut more.
I did find this under the passenger seat of my car today:
I haven't cried. I still feel bloated. I've been totally numbed out ALL day. I feel nothing... emotion-wise... I am dead. I just... I don't know anymore...
I'm scared. I'm slipping and I know it. I have NO desire to eat. I have to self harm. I know I can't let myself slip to far. I know I won't be able to pick the pieces back up.
I don't know what to do...