Monday, August 1, 2011

So Tired!!

I feel like I did a lot today...

I registered for classes, I am NOT killing myself and talking 24+ credits. I am only taking 15. This will be a good thing. I also have no classes on Friday's so I can come home. I'll try to get some therapy in on Wednesday afternoons at school also. I will. I need to keep telling myself that.

Then I had dance camp :) 
Always fun.

Then I went out... first, I attempted (and failed) to find where the place is for the support group on Saturday. I couldn't find it. I think I need to go the other way on one of the roads. I got up to the hospital... but not the Ambulatory Care Center, which is where the group is. It was pretty discouraging... I wanted to make sure I found it so that's one less excuse I can use to not go on Saturday morning.
I still don't know what I'm going to tell my parents. I wish I had a friends house that I could stay over Friday night cause then I wouldn't have to tell them anything, but that's not the case.

Then I had to run a few errands and I also spent close to 2 hours picking out things for my Recovery Scrapbook. I got some nice things. I'll get some pictures up here at some point.

So, I'm back home now. We're having dinner soon. I'm exhausted. My body is so tired. My back has been killing me lately but now my body is just... tired. I don't want to move. I want to go lay down and just.... lay there? Haha...

BUT... I guess the good news is that I'm feeling a little better mentally and emotionally. As long as I avoid mirrors or anything that would bring me to see my own body. I'm still a bit uncomfortable but at least I can avoid seeing myself and wondering if that's the truth or not.

I guess I'll head downstairs now... I told my mom I would empty the dishwasher for her before dinner. 

Ughh... so exhausted...

1 comment:

  1. I am so glad ur feeling better mentally and emotionally
    That's a feat idea finding the place b4 the day, always better than stressing on the day of meeting, I hope u found it since.
    Good girl emptying the dishwasher, I bet ur Mum appreciates it and there is NO WAY u need to avoid seing ur body as u are beautiful, but, u dont need to see ur body because ur beauty extend beyond the physical - the beauty that is ur spirit, personality and overall being

    Love u Nik, and thanks for being u,