Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Want. Want. Want. Me. Me. Me.

I want to be able to go out to lunch with friends.

I want to go on a date and have a boy take me to a restaurant.

I want to go spend hours at the mall shopping and trying on clothes.

I want to lay on the beach and get a nice tan.

I want to dive in a pool and swim under water.

I want to order pizza and stay in watching a movie.

I want to have a girls night in that includes ice cream and snacks.

I want to be given chocolates on Valentine's Day and not freak out about it.

I want to have money for things other than diet pills, laxatives, razors, and mederma.

I want to put on an outfit and feel confident.

I want to believe people when they tell me I'm beautiful.

I want go get together with friends and order chinese food.

I want breakfast in bed.

I want to not be thinking about my body every time someone touches me or hugs me.

I want to sit on a guys lap and be okay.

I want to have a guy pick me up without freaking out.

I want to go out with no makeup on.

I want to know what I'm feeling.

I want to stay in bed all day because I want to be with the other person, not because I can't get myself out.

I want to share a milkshake.

I want to fucking live.

But none of that's gonna happen, is it?


  1. All those things are achieveable honey
    if you "want" them enough
    the only thing stopping you is you...

  2. Those are all achievable. Call up a friend or two and ask them to have lunch. Go to the mall and spend hours trying on clothes. You can do it. It's a matter of mindset. You are the only person stopping you from a lot of these things. You have to realize that you want these things, but you aren't allowing yourself to have them.

  3. This nearly made me bawl at work. I know those feelings so, so well... Maybe, though, you could pick one of them and really work to make it happen. Slowly, but surely, you'll get there.