Sunday, January 16, 2011

Never. Again.

Wow, so I don't even know where to start. I had three friends from home come visit me last night, I hadn't eaten a single thing all day. I got so so so wasted, throwing up, passed out, the whole nine yards. I wasn't hung over at all when I woke up, I was still a little drunk for a while though but other than that I was fine. I didn't even have coffee just a little coke zero for the caffeine headache. I also took 2 hydroxycut maxs, 1 green tea triple fat burner, and 2 expel... 

Needless to say, all of that on an empty stomach, I wasn't doin too hot. Luckily I got a ride to rehearsal, yes, I now had to dance... I seriously thought I was going to pass out or die or something. My sugar was so so low, I was nauseous, dizzy, shaking like crazy. It was bad. One of the girls is hypoglycemic so she always has snacks on her. She gave me a little baggy of baked goldfish and I had about 20 before rehearsal, very slowly... and then after rehearsal I made myself finish the baggy. It took me about 2 hours to do that. I just finished them off.

I have two more friends coming to visit me tonight... I will NOT let myself be that drunk again. Ugh, seriously, I was such a mess. I hate hate hate being like that. And I woke up knowing I should eat something but then saw pictures of myself and totally freaked. Everyone was offering to buy me food and I was just like 'no it's fine this happens from time to time'. No more pills today... maybe just some... no... I really shouldn't risk it. I have rehearsal for my piece in about an hour or so. I've just been hanging out in the theatre for the time in between.

I'm not sure what else to say right now. I'm alive though... so that's a plus. I really didn't think I was gonna make it this morning.


  1. Yeah, I highly recommend not getting that drunk again. I also recommend not taking all those pills on an empty stomach. It could tear the lining of your stomach.

  2. glad that you're okay. that dizzy/shaking feeling is terrible!
    xxx v

  3. I'm glad you're doing okay. Don't drink. It's a waste of time, and energy.. the next day sucks anyway after you feel bloated no matter how empty you are.. you still feel bloated. Stay away from the pills for at least a day. let the alcohol leave your body first.

    Be careful.

  4. Yeah agreed, if you really want to drink something, maybe some diet soda, while the other drink or do something else that doesn't involve drinking. Glad you're alive, hope you don't mind me reading along. Your blog seems interesting.