I just realized that my actual fear of food didn't come until after treatment. After they made me gain too much weight too fast and way before I was anywhere near mentally ready. I may have gotten skinny, I may have skipped meals, exercised, ate small amounts, ate healthy foods... but I wasn't AFRAID of food.
God, that place fuckin ruined my life. I have nothing against treatment... but this place was just. Ugh. It's the reason I hate hospitals. And I wasn't the only one who had a bad experience there.