Sunday, June 26, 2011

Bones and Independence

My collarbones are slowly becoming more visible... very slowly... and I can feel my hip bones just a little more...

I think this is why I've been in such a good mood an okay mood lately. But my face is breaking out... something must still be stressing me.

I think one of my biggest fears also, is that I am going to fail... at life. I know nothing about money, paychecks, paying bills... I already suck at taking care of myself...

I feel like I will never be able to be fully independent. I will fail at everything... and I'm wondering if that may have played a role in my eating disorder...

Maybe... maybe not...

Whatever... I'm going to bed now. Goodnight <3


  1. As much as I can relate to liking the bones, I'm sad to hear you are seeing/feeling them more. Means you are losing and I'm sure you definitely don't need to lose. :(
    I feel I will never be independent either. You are already so independent though. You have a job, an apartment, and are in school. Great steps to independence. :)
    Love you!

  2. Yeah I know how you feel. :( Every time I lay down on my stomach, even on a soft bedding I feel like my hip bones are getting bruised.
    & don't worry, you can & will be independent.