Feeling

I feel physical sensations... but I don't feel emotions... and when I do- they aren't whole, they mask themselves as something else (like anger), I have no way of expressing them, I can not process them, I never ride them out.


But when I'm bloated, when I'm cramped up, when my chest hurts, when I'm starving and empty, when I hit myself, when I pull my hair, when I put the cold blade to my skin, when I pinch myself... those things I feel.